I was diagnosed with Acute lymphocytic Leukaemia
June 7th 2015
I was diagnosed with Acute lymphocytic Leukaemia in simple terms 'Blood cancer'. Doctor said it was a rare case of Cancer for my age group. But nevertheless I was dying. I was born in a rich family and I consider myself blessed for that. My father always used to say, " Money can give you everything". But that day proved him wrong. I had seen that looked in his eyes- a disbelief where he must have realized Money can't give his son a new life. In all of human history man has always been curious about death. Tho one must died. Man has tried attempt to predict one's passing but I was lucky. I knew my time here was limited . Short in fact.
That report came as a shock to me more shocking than Donald trump winning this Presidential election. But my pick was trump .Yet a man must accept his faith. That moment when you know you are dying is the moment you beg to live your life a inch more or at least you wished you have lived it differently. And no I wasn't depressed . Depression is not the side effect of Cancer. It's the side effect of dying. Despite that I was terribly afraid of dying because I hadn't lived yet.
As for now I guess I lived . I did thing that I was always sacred to do . Death is not the end gentleman. It's just we all . All of we have a very limited time . All my life I lived it the way I wanted . Never did good for anyone. But as it now I did some few things that has put smile in my face . Tried my hardest to make people smile . From that 5 years old kid with a kidney failure to that didi who didn't have money for her husband Funeral . From that 2 years old whose parents left him in orphanage to that 80 years old aama . I gave them a smile .
But I am sorry maa. I have never been a good son . I've always made you cry. Didn't listen a thing you said. But maa death doesn't scared me. No it doesn't make me cry . Going away from you do. And if God exists up there and if I met him there I'm gonna sell my soul to him to be your son again. Sorry Maya , I am going away. I dreamed of giving that ring to you and take you home. Show maa that how beautiful her buhari is. If I be a ghost ma jhaile tero ori pari huney chu. And do love again hai. Be with someone. Ma jahile tero ho.
Now I don’t worry so much Because in the end, none of us have very long on this Earth. Life is fleeting. As if for now there are many things to do my time is near I can feel it . There are many things this Disease has taught me . This Disease has changed me in way I could never think of. Gave me everything that now I could die in happiness.
Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones
Good life ahead everyone.
Source: Nepalese teenager confession
I was diagnosed with Acute lymphocytic Leukaemia in simple terms 'Blood cancer'. Doctor said it was a rare case of Cancer for my age group. But nevertheless I was dying. I was born in a rich family and I consider myself blessed for that. My father always used to say, " Money can give you everything". But that day proved him wrong. I had seen that looked in his eyes- a disbelief where he must have realized Money can't give his son a new life. In all of human history man has always been curious about death. Tho one must died. Man has tried attempt to predict one's passing but I was lucky. I knew my time here was limited . Short in fact.
That report came as a shock to me more shocking than Donald trump winning this Presidential election. But my pick was trump .Yet a man must accept his faith. That moment when you know you are dying is the moment you beg to live your life a inch more or at least you wished you have lived it differently. And no I wasn't depressed . Depression is not the side effect of Cancer. It's the side effect of dying. Despite that I was terribly afraid of dying because I hadn't lived yet.
As for now I guess I lived . I did thing that I was always sacred to do . Death is not the end gentleman. It's just we all . All of we have a very limited time . All my life I lived it the way I wanted . Never did good for anyone. But as it now I did some few things that has put smile in my face . Tried my hardest to make people smile . From that 5 years old kid with a kidney failure to that didi who didn't have money for her husband Funeral . From that 2 years old whose parents left him in orphanage to that 80 years old aama . I gave them a smile .
But I am sorry maa. I have never been a good son . I've always made you cry. Didn't listen a thing you said. But maa death doesn't scared me. No it doesn't make me cry . Going away from you do. And if God exists up there and if I met him there I'm gonna sell my soul to him to be your son again. Sorry Maya , I am going away. I dreamed of giving that ring to you and take you home. Show maa that how beautiful her buhari is. If I be a ghost ma jhaile tero ori pari huney chu. And do love again hai. Be with someone. Ma jahile tero ho.
Now I don’t worry so much Because in the end, none of us have very long on this Earth. Life is fleeting. As if for now there are many things to do my time is near I can feel it . There are many things this Disease has taught me . This Disease has changed me in way I could never think of. Gave me everything that now I could die in happiness.
Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones
Good life ahead everyone.
Source: Nepalese teenager confession
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